Never

Can't do this.
In the dark.
In the dark place.

With the music and the memories.
Wondering what to live for.
Not you. Not me. Not them.

I wish you could understand.
See the shadows and know.
Feel the acid burn of crawling tears.

You will never know.
They will never know.
I can never say.

I want you to be deeper.
A depth you've never seen,
You can never know.

Fuck that.
All this means. Is that
I'm alone. Again.